Long overdue, but not Adieu...

I feel I must preface this return.

I am back, the world is the same and different as am I. I will continue to write, though I will be moving to another blog focussing on mountains. There are many in my life and many that I care deeply about. I will attempt to maintain this blog as a way that I can continue to document who I am in a social way. I am glad for the frequency at which I am on Facebook now a days because it helps to draw out those mundane things in my day that made me smile and snap a picture.

Song of the post, "Amsterdam" by Imagine Dragons. After ariving home this was one of the standout bands that I had heard about. My brothers as well as most everyone else loves them so I started to listen. I enjoy the lyrics and the feelings which are portrayed in the music. This song has a catchy opening, "I'm sorry mother..." I sung that frequently over memorial weekend on the short trip to Washington and Oregon with my mother and brothers who are still home. As I listen to these songs I am reminded of a Dream Theater song that I am struggling to find again or remember. One day, someday you'll...(fill it in).

Now, remember my world is in disarray, Christian is out on his mission, I am once again a lone man and I am in school applying at the MTC and trying to live a life of fun. My journal entry this morning helped me to sum up a little of how I feel.

"So what do I do now? Well, I thought of bike rides and sand castles. I thought of sunsets and hikes. I rubbed my sore neck, took a long shower and stared at myself through a mirror without glass. I prayed, then I prayed a little more. I slept and I lived in the world of Gatsby for a few moments and tried to unfurl that knot within myself. I stepped outside into my own glass box high above the crowd and wondered…why? 

Now I am here writing this all, scriptures open, mind wandering."

It is fun to be so unconsciously conscious of who I am. I am glad it is a Sunday, it is a day of rest and reflection. Another new beginning as the Lord invites one and all to his table to leave their burdens there. I am looking forward to this week. Nothing special planned. It is alright.